As a new year dawns on us it’s only fitting that I take this time to bid old chapter’s goodbye and welcome in new chapters.
This year has surely taught me so much, about myself, my relationship with others and most importantly my relationship with God.
So why did I begin this journey and who am I, up to now people that know me, know my true identity, and I realise that there are allot of people that have read my blog and don’t know my identity. I am Kubashnee Moodley, born on the 30th of November 1977, a few hours before midnight, the second daughter to Mr and Mrs S Moodley from Durban, Kwazulu Natal. I was brought up in Newlands West (an area segregated for Indians during apartheid) and exposed to very few non-Indians during my childhood and was fortunate to grow up with parents that were not blatantly racist. My upbringing was not one greatly influenced by a specific religion, although my parents were Hindu/Tamil and practiced under Hinduism, as kids we were allowed to visit and gain exposure to other religions through Aunts and Uncles that were Muslim and Christian.
I cannot honestly tell you if this was a good thing or a bad thing that my parents didn’t inflict or direct me towards a specific religion ….I accepted God as one and being universal, yet still always felt that there was a void. I knew and know that God exists, I just wasn’t sure how to accept him/her. I could and can never deny that God is real and more recently through life events “believe” in the miracles that God can create through faith.
My very strong belief is that when people close to us pass on, they become our angels and watch over us, I believe that my late grandfather is such an angel to me, along with living angels that God placed in my life at the just the right time. I am sure everyone has had that experience, where people come into your life and at the beginning you don’t really know why or how and then their purpose is shown is to you …that my dear friends is the hand of God… there is no such thing as luck according to my beliefs.
One of my great passions was always writing, and even as a child growing up, I wrote many letters to God and my Grandfather, My relationship with God always existed and I knew as I know now through that relationship, faith and belief anything is possible.
The day finally came, 5 years ago, ironically a few months before I met Shaun that I was leaning towards Christianity. I will be very honest, I wasn’t sure how I was going to tell the world (my family) and what they would think (aahh the days when I cared what people thought). I listened to gospel and the word of Christ really spoke to me in a way no other religion did.
My further affirmation came when I met Shaun’s family, a strong Christian family that despite not having all the material possessions in life, had something far greater, they had faith and happiness. Prayer and laughter embraced their home. It was love and peaceful, something I have never felt with my family. Meeting Shaun made it easier to introduce the fact that I was now Christian, through our bond. In the early days we prayed at home, and prayed in our hearts. It was much later that through the troubles we were experiencing in our relationship, we decided to seek Gods house. I honestly don’t recall how we found Liberty Church in Randburg….. Oh ofcourse I know, God had directed us there. I haven’t looked back since. Every Sunday you will find me there, come rain or storm, you will find me there.
So far you have only heard my story, I hope one day Shaun can share his versions of events, that’s my prayer. I pray for him on this day and every other day that he may find God the way I have and the way his family does. God is a forgiving God, so as I bid farewell to 2014, I forgive and let go of the people that have hurt me, have felt the need to think evil jealous thoughts over me. I pray that God also forgives me for my own sins, I am certainly not perfect my any means. My prayer for myself is that every day I become stronger in my faith and live through the values of the God and his teachings, a life of honesty, integrity and loyalty, a person that stays true to my word. I pray over my family and friends that they may receive the breakthrough that’s needed in their own lives, and to everyone reading my blog, that they don’t feel sorry for me, that’s not the purpose, instead please take from my learnings and know that through God and faith, darkness will always be overcome.
And everyone in Gods house said AMEN! Happy New Year all #lifeisforliving